The Poet

    Letter To An Angel

When I've no one to turn to
When I'm feeling low
When there's no one to talk to
And nowhere I want to go

You're there to help me out
through thick and even thin
I forget what I was sad about
And my lips learn to smile again

You always make me happy
I hope you really know
And this may sound a bit sappy
But I could ever let you go

You smile at me
And  my worries go away
I hope this smile I will see
Each and every day

When you hug me
I hope you never let go
And back I will always hug ye
All of this you must know

Brightest days or darkest hours
Both of us will shine
The great adventure will be ours
Not just yours or just mine

My love is forever true
You always will be in my heart
I will always stand behind you
Even though we are miles apart.

Thanks for being a fierce friend
I'll be there for you beyond the end

Mates

 To them I am addicted
for they are a drug to me
they numb my agonizing pain
now clearly I can see

I use to be a puppet
for the world to play
sorrow was a price
many times I had to pay

They've severed the strings
to which I was attached
and opened my cell door
which was so desperately latched

They are my cup of tea
which warms me when I'm cold
they know my secrets
which have never before been told

My world was completely dark
even during the brightest day
They are the many stars
which now guide my way

Without them I would be lost
on my shoulders would be many weights
for they have always lifted them
"They" are indeed my mates

They are more prized than a gem
I can only ever hope never to fail them
They can not be cherished more
They've opened my soul's door

 My Love

 When I see you
I cannot help but to smile
my heart jumps meanwhile

Your smile
lights my darkest day
in every little way

Your laughter
is the sound of splendour
it makes dove soar

Your hugs
fill me with complete bliss
as does every little kiss

Your soul
is brighter than the most brilliant star
anyone can easily see it from afar

 Onwards

 For years I've stood alone

not wanting to feel what I do
I've stared into the stars wishing
needing to feel something new

People tell me to learn from life
and I've learned so much
Hope is only unrealised disappointment
Joy is too distant to touch

Still I move onward
never once daring to look back
fearing if I ever do
my mind I will soon lack

I still sand here
memories burned into my mind
sorrow forever etched into my eyes
the youth in my face impossible to find.

 Darkness Looms

 Skies are filled with sunlight
white clouds hovering high above
lighting every dark corner in my mind

My head was filled with night
now as peaceful as a white dove
making my way quite easy to find

A dark feeling falls upon me
a darkness lingers deep inside
even though I should be content

A feeling of something yet to be
as though someone close has died
perhaps a signal misguided or missent

Black clouds will soon loom
something I fear is inevitable
turning my day back into night

Agonized is not a position I wish to assume
this feeling I can only hope is curable
darkness to me has been more than a constant fight

For all of my life
it has been and always
will be war

The Darkness

I want to leave the noise behind
that is impossible for me to do
the noise completely fills my mind

Darkness is choking me
this feeling is something new
I cannot seem to breathe

Sorrow is what I thought I knew
it is somethings that I now know
I hope true sorrow will never find you

Darkness has consumed me easily now
seems I have become my own shadow
revenge is something I am unable to vow

Insanity will never become my foe
because it is so easily my comfort
keeps me alive when life keeps me low. 

I can try so hard
to keep the ones I love
in the end they always leave me

Everytime I let down my guard
inside I become a murdered dove
the pain seems to drop me to my knee

Anyone who has felt my pain
would go down the path of suicide
others go down the path of murder

I try so hard but in vain
to become completely numb inside

 Black Bird

I can never have silence
a certain sound is constant
always screams in the back of my mind

Everyone around me smiles
enjoying something I can't
instead missing that feeling

Terrified to close my eyes
the visions darkness brings
things no one should ever have to see

The black bird always haunts me
as does the mocking song it sings
a symbol of the inevitable losses

Deep desire to become numb
though afraid I'll become so cold
my heart destined to be in constant agony

I find myself here
being ever so bold
in hoping to feel joy again